Firstly apologies for not bloging on Friday... I had a hectic day and didn't have time...I wasn't happy about missing it...so thought I would do a double blog Monday.
At the moment I seem to have quite a big problem...and for the first time it is not my weight... I CAN NOT STOP BUYING CLOTHES. I have never been hugely into fashion and wouldn't really say that I am yet either however I do buy things I like and think that suit me and that aren't necessarily cutting edge fashion but are tasteful and modern... I would hope! The last couple of months I just cant stop buying clothes though... all the time I am looking to see what I can buy and try things on... I don't know what's wrong with me. Somebody said that maybe because I am losing weight I am getting more enjoyment from it and I think that could be true as normally when I go clothes shopping it's a real struggle...I get depressed and have no enjoyment from it at all as nothing fits or I have to get it in a bigger size or it is hugely unflattering. Traditionally I always used to have lunch first and then try on clothes as otherwise I would really not enjoy my lunch as would be thinking how horribly fat I was!! On Friday I went out and bought a few new things that I really shouldn't have as I have NO money.....and what makes it worse it that Biggy never buys any clothes and he saves so much money and I just go out and buy things I really shouldn't. Also it's actually stupid as I WILL continue losing weight and then the clothes I buy will be to big for me soon (eek!) its like I bought these new jeans 2/3 months ago and I remember putting them on and thinking wow they feel so good and make me look alot better...now I think humph...they are a little bit to big and baggy...I wish they were a little smaller...!!! I know that is great but at the same time I don't want to have get a whole new wardrobe again in a few months (well I do..but you get my point).
So I think I am going to make a pact with myself....don't buy any new clothes until I am 195lbs..that is excatly 10lbs away and hopefully by that time it will be coming into Winter and so I will have to buy some new clothes anyway. No new clothes at all... not even nail varnish. All the money I will save can go on our new place and furniture and paint and things.... God this will be hard... But I have to do it....!!
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