OMG, so last night I really needed a glass of wine and ended up having quite alot. We then watched Greys Anatomy which is normally quite emotional but these ones were MEGA emotional (death, premature babies, love, marriage proposals) ... guess what happened... I turned into a blubbering emotional mess and then was texting my friends saying such rubbish.....EMBARRASSING. I hate it when I do that as then I just spend the next day thinking what an idiot I am and my friends must think I am so annoying and a bit of a prat! I do find that at the moment I am always worried what people think of me and that people talk about me behind my back. I think it is because in the beginning of the year I had alot of changes and alot disappointments from people that I thought I was close to, it has actually made me quite insecure in other peoples feelings towards me.
Anyway
As a counter-affect of all the wine, I did have a very healthy dinner of Turkey breast, leek, mushrooms and pepper all baked together in the oven with lots of yummy herbs. I won't drink again this week apart from on Thursday as Biggy and I are going out for a special dinner. My drinking is something I really need to get under control, I am not an alcoholic or anything but I do drink alot and I LOVE wine. Biggy and I used to work in hospitality and I think it steams from there as we really did drink a HUGE amount in those days. My problem is that once I have one glass I can have 10, I just want more and more and more....OK I do sound like an alcoholic ....do need to get that under control... I just LOVE wine...
This morning I did my work out, woke up bright and breezy apart from some very puffy eyes. I did the Bikini Workout but I didn't really enjoy it and found it quite confusing so I think I am going to search for another one. Tonight I am supposed to be doing Zumba but Biggy and I are viewing a house, if I don't do it tonight I will get up early tomorrow do my resistance band workout in the morning and my Zumba in the evening. Determined to get everything in this week... I was looking at my weight chart and on the 14th of June it will have been a month since I got to my lightest weight in May. I am 2lbs heavier now than a month ago so my aim is to loose 2lbs this week and then it will mean that I am at the same weight I was four weeks ago.
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