Yesterday I went up to London as one of my best friends had a wedding dress fitting. It is so weird me going with my friends for all this wedding stuff. 10 years ago we were talking about the kind of men we would marry and the BIG DAY.... And now it's happening! So bizarre!!!!!
In the past I have not been a huge fan of London. It's so big and busy and sooooo many people. But that's why people like it, for me this time it was better and I can see myself liking it more later but I have a few things to deal with first.
We went to Selfridges after and it was packed with so many a) wealthy people b) fashionable people. I know we were in Selfridges so it's going to have a certain kind of person but it made me feel a bit crap to be honest. This always happens in London, I always feel like such a country bumpkin and feel like I am dressed really shabbily and I also FEEL REALLY REALLY FAT. I think because there always seem to be thin fashionable people around who have the whole London confidence thing going on and although I am confident I always just want to melt into the floor and disappear. I know it's because I am out of my comfort zone and I know not everybody is looking at me and thinking "what an idiot... She is so fat and trying so hard" but that's what I think is going on.... How crazy is that. But I am totally looking at things in a positive manner as in a few months I will be one of those thin fashionable people. Maybe not so much on the rich side of things but defo thinner and better dressed.
So 2 things to take away from London: It has motivated me to keep pushing and keep working...and re-iterates the fact that I want to dress alot better and not buy cheap things (this will be easier once I have lost weight)
On a side note I hope to have a good loss this week. So far everything is on track so just have to make sure I don't go over board on things today!
See you on the flip side for weigh in!!
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