198lbs (14st.2)... it's a loss...BUT I am the same weight I was 7 weeks ago... 7 weeks... Now I know we have had Xmas and New Years and everything but that just annoys me to be honest. If I had been good I could have lost 7lbs...which would put me at 191lbs which would have been 9lbs away from my first goal of 186lbs.. or 13stone. I know that we can all go if only I had done this and if only I hadn't done that.. etc but it just annoys me. Am I serious about losing weight or not? Obviously I am ...I am just tired of failing myself.. I want to see the scale go down. Why do I still do it. I have no one else to blame apart from myself and the scale doesn't go down because I eat too much or I eat things that are fattening... it doesn't take a rocket scientist to work it out. AGHHHHHHHH!
I will get to my goal weight I just find it frustrating sometimes when it takes so long to do. I was so pleased to see 196 on the scales just before Xmas and now I am just angry with myself for indulging as it really isn't worth it.
Weekend was good... on Friday I went to the gym and ran 30 minutes... really sweated my arse off which was great and really felt the burn. I had a few drinks over the weekend but kept in control and stayed away from the wine. I had 2 glasses of Cava on Friday night (Cava is my new thing) and then Biggy and I went out on Saturday night and I had 2 small champagne cocktails. Not bad going I think as before I would have had a bottle on Friday a bottle on Saturday and probably a bottle on Sunday.
Also at the weekend I made a mistake... I bought a pair of jeans... on Friday I bought 3 pairs of shoes...all beautiful and all fitting for my "new" style... also all £5 a pair in the sale in New Look ( Score or what!) anyway my other jeans are too short to wear with them so I went out and bought a pair of long jeans well...I thought they were perfect... and also still a size 16 (yay)... got home... looking good... in the evening put them on...felt like an elephant and they are actually too long to go with my beautiful shoes! So annoyed. When I am down to 13 stone I think I am going to get a pair of jeans made for me as nothing in the shops is ever quite right. Biggy and I were talking about it and he knows how much I want to change my style but he pointed out that if I buy clothes now they will be more like my old style as I will try and get them to fit with my current clothes and then everything will merge together... much better to save my money and in 6 months go out on a huge shopping spree and literally re-do my WHOLE wardrobe. So that is my plan and although it panics me a bit as I have already proven that I can't go 2 weeks without buying something and have broken one of my New Years resolutions already (but to be fair I really did think they were going to be the perfect length) I know that it does make total sense. I am going to be cheeky and talk to my Mother and see if she will match whatever I have saved. I am also giving myself the target of re-doing it all when I reach 182lbs (13st) as it will be a momentous occasion for me.
Anyway we will see what this week brings and I have already planned out my meals and menus for the evening meal so no real reason why I should slip up. Maybe next week I could be reporting in from the other side of 14 stone... here is hoping.
Consistently is key. Every day just aim to have a good day, don't stress about the future, or how long it is going to take, you are building habits for a healthy lifestyle that you will have to keep up for the rest of your life, fast weight loss is not maintainable!
ReplyDeleteits so easy (and such a good pass time) to think Ive lost this much this week and in this many weeks I'll be this and fit into these clothes. Whenever I do this I always end up disappointed. This time (when it WILL be different for me) I'm trying to change the focus to following the plan (WW) accurately and accepting the resulting losses rather than "aiming" to lose a certain amount each week which leads me to cut back to much, and then rebound sooner or later.
ReplyDeleteI am so with you on giving up the wine.
stick at it. If it was easy everyone would be thin!
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Ladies you are so right... I know. i know I just need to keep on going... last year for all my set backs I still lost 26lbs which is GREAT...and that's what I need to realize. As we all know its the tortoise that wins the race... thank you for your support. xxx
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