Letting Myself Down...BUT ...Fixing It

This week has been pretty crap in regards to eating and all my posts have been quite negative which is not normally like me. I have really let myself down which I am annoyed about... I have ate emotionally this week and drank and not gone to the gym. It's very annoying. But all I can do is draw a line under the week and start again from today.

 

So let's look at it realistically and see what I can work on and what I need to realise..

 

I need to really keep an eye on my portion sizes as I know that this can creep up although I feel like I have been really good I think my portion sizes might have been getting a bit bigger.

 

I need to really realise that if I want to have the body I want I am going to have to give things up forever... I am not meaning this to sound as extreme as it does but if I want to eat cake and chocolate and crisps etc then that's fine but I then can't complain about not losing weight. I am not saying that I am NEVER going to have fatty foods ever again but it's not going to be a regular feature of my life..not even for a treat. Why  should a treat result in food?

 

I do need to go to the gym regularly...I am not ever going to naturally have a toned body and to keep a healthy body and to make sure I keep the figure I want I am going to have to work hard at it. All  those people that have bodies where you think "wow look at them" don't get it naturally..they work at it and that's what I have to do. I also need to remember that going to the gym actually puts me in a great mood and makes me stay on track as value my body after I have done a workout.

 

This really is a way of life, I can't stop just because I am having a tough week and I need to realise that any feelings I am having are not going to get sorted out by eating bad foods or eating more. If I stick to healthy eating and exercise I WILL lose weight and tone up. I have to believe that...and trust it! If I eat unhealthy foods I will be unhealthy.. If I eat healthy foods I will be healthy. It is that simple. It is not worth eating the unhealthy foods and letting go for awhile as my body puts on weight amazingly quickly and the the stress of having to lose it again gets me into the place I have been this week....IT'S JUST NOT WORTH IT

 

I need to take all the sugary fatty foods off the pedestal... I still look at chocolate and cake and biscuits and think they are amazing...(Biscuits really are amazing) but I am not missing anything from not eating them. In the office we have chocolates still from Christmas and this week I have been eating them... (shame) ... but when I have one I don't really enjoy it or think that is was worth the calories. I am eating it for other reasons like boredom or to make me happy... The crazy thing is that if I don't eat the foods I don't miss them, I don't feel like I am missing out on things at all.

 

I really need to enjoy my food more...I love food...if I didn't I wouldn't be in this situation... but I need to remember that healthy food is just as yummy and if not yummier than all the unhealthy foods.When I eat Salmon with fresh veg the taste of that is so strong and so nice. I actually don't think I eat that unhealthily but I do need to explore food and realise that there is so much more out there than I am currently eating that is healthy and full of flavour. In a weird way I need to embrace food more rather than shunning it and saying that I am not going to eat so much as it's not always about portion sizes.

 

The last thing I need to let go of is my constant need for a result straight away...KATHERINE YOU ARE NOT GOING TO GET THE FINAL RESULT TOMORROW...OR NEXT WEEK. It takes time..you have lost 26lbs already and you have made huge changes to your life...this is a slow journey that requires constant work...there is no quick fix...it takes time and dedication...be patient...give yourself time to learn and enjoy the changes!

 

So here we go again... January has been a long month for me... and to be honest quite hard. I will be starting again today and want to start February where I should have been at the start of January. 14stone...no doubt this Monday will see me at the same weight...and that's OK. I still have just over 7 days to reach 196lbs and that is achievable.

 

So here we go...Chapter 1 is done... I have learnt some good things and achieved alot... now it's time to fully embrace everything I have learnt and do the things I have known I should be doing for quite awhile.