Feel Like a Woman

Last night I went to the gym (yay me) and I did 30 minutes on the Cross-trainer followed by some toning exercises in total I burned about 500 calories. Now normally I go to the women's only part of my gym which is a separate room... it doesn't have alot in it and it isn't very big but it has 2 cross-trainers, 2 running machines, a few bikes and a rowing machine then some weights etc for toning... so really it has all I need. Anyway I went in yesterday and both the cross trainers were being used which to be honest is quite unusual so I had to go into the main gym... OMG...I hate it so much. When you walk in all the weights and heavy machines are right in the entrance so of course all the men are there... now I'm not a prude but I just hate going to the gym when there are men around. I feel that they all look at you...in fact they really do look at you....now they are probably just looking to see who is coming in etc but because there are about 20 men looking up at you it's just a bit awkward and it's exactly the same when you leave. 

I hate it... I think it's mainly because I am overweight and so don't feel so relaxed in the gym...when you are in the women's area although you still get looked at I don't feel like it's quite so bad...even though I know women can be bitchier than men. Why is that...? Why do women judge each other? I think it's very unfair and stupid. 

As I get older I realize more and more that women are very different to men and women do think differently to men... without getting on soapbox and waving a placard at you...I think it's really important for women to stick together and support each other where possible. I'm not saying we should all like each other..it's impossible for everybody to like each other... but perhaps to not be so judgmental. When I see someone who is bigger than me in the gym.. I don't look at her and go "OMG she is so fat look at her trying to do a sit up"... I look at her and go "Look at that...she is trying to do a sit up and is succeeding ..no doubt next week she will be doing a few more than she manged this week...good for her"... and it's not just in image but in all parts of life. 

That extra support is essential I think, more and more I look at Biggy and I think "why is not obvious to you what to do" and the reason why it's not obvious is because he is a man... Biggy's Aunt spoke to me the other day about men and relationships and things (I don't know what Biggy has said to her but she was talking about marriage quite alot!) but something really stuck out for me... she said that women when they are standing in "Spot A" with the family and the shopping and the lists being sorted in their head and keeping an eye out on things they are already thinking about "Spot B" and what will happen there and how they are going to get there and what will have to be sorted out and what will be needed etc.... a man just thinks "Oh I'm in Spot A"... a man will never understand how a women thinks...which is why I think it's so important for women to be there for each other... to support and encourage each other... You have all given me so much support and it's because you UNDERSTAND what I'm going through and can empathize...and that is why I am still losing weight..not giving up and am succeeding in my goal. 

......and step off the soapbox......