Right it has to be said that this week I am really not feeling it. I am getting really frustrated that we are in our 3rd full week of January and I am still battling to get back to 14 stone/196lbs. I know that results take time and I know that I have to be patient and just keep at it and I also know that I can't solve this by going "Oh I don't care any more" and then eating what I want as sooner rather than later I will regret it, have put on weight again and be further away from the end goal than I am now. It's just so hard to keep yourself positive and keep on going when you are not seeing the results you want... I really need to see 14 stone or less this week as otherwise I will really start to feel that this is to hard to do!
The worst thing is that it is obviously my fault...I can't blame this on anything else and that is what really sucks. I am doing something wrong...and although I am not drinking so much (apart from this week where Biggy and I had a bottle of Cava on Monday and a bottle of red wine last night...which have all been counted...and yes I am aware I am drinking o cheer myself up which isn't good) and I am really being so careful about what I eat during the day and am going to the gym and working my arse off I still seem to be staying in the 14 stone range... I don't want to. I don't want to be 14 stone anymore... it's a new year and I reached 14 stone last year and was hoping that this year I could quickly be in the 13 stone range and see the weight coming off... I was really in the zone... but it's not happening... why????? 4 weeks ago I reached my aim of 196 and although I went back up to 203 over Xmas and New Years I am still 2lbs away from being back to 196. It makes the aim of 163lbs seem like it is years away... I wanted to be able to reach that by the end of the year...
The more I feel like I am failing the more I am hating myself which I know is bad, the photos form yesterday I am finding hard to look at and am just feeling overweight and fat. I just want to roll up into a ball and only come out when the weight is starting to go again. All I have to do is lose 14lbs to be back at the weight I was when Biggy and I first started going out... that is my main goal...182lbs...after that it is a push to get to 163...which I am going to strive to do and I will achieve but right now all I want is 182... why did I have to be a person that finds comfort in food... why did I become like this in the first place and why didn't I see it happening and do something about it sooner...
You really need to stop beating yourself up! Also, because alcohol is poison to the body your body works as hard as possible to get rid of alcohol and therefore it concentrates on ridding your body of alcohol rather than fat so you really need to limit your alcohol intake to one glass per night and not just add all 7 glasses into one day in order to see bigger losses. Hope you get the results you want soon
ReplyDeleteThank you for your support... Im not drinking for the rest of the week and didn't dink last night...I dont need it and dont really want it...old habits creeped back in! but they are back in the box...so right about the poison..i never thought about it like that and my body fighting the wine rather than the fat!
DeleteYeah I didn't realise until I read an article written by a personal trainer about it - I'd post you the link if I could find it but I can't, sorry!
DeleteLove you girlie. It can be like this sometimes. You'll find the balance that works for you. This process is so much more then physical strength. It's mental. Make a plan, stick to it and if it doesn't work, then tweak and adjust until it does. You'll get there. xo
ReplyDeleteThank you for your constnat support... i know i will get ther ena dknow WW is working...just having a bad week.... Friday is just around the corner and then I can relax and enjoy...might re-read a self help book go to the gym and work all the negativity off!
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