Dear Diary

Hi! OMG... the first thing I have to say is just how much my thighs are hurting.. it hurts to sit down, to stand up, to walk, to go up stairs, to go down stairs it HURTS to do anything.. and that's all thanks to Squats! #NoPainNoGain I have started the 30 day Squat Challenge which sees you finishing on 250 Squats on Day 30... now due to the pain I am in right now.. I might stretch it to a 60 day Squat challenge as don't see the point in achieving 250 squats in one session but then not being able to do any for 3 months because my body is recovering!! 

I'm really pleased to report that I am really staying on track. I am still not counting calories but am logging what I have eaten and estimating at the end of the day. I have downloaded a App which is a cute diary, very girlie but perfect for what I want. I have set up 12 week events and am challenging myself to stay healthy for those 12 weeks which include over Christmas! They say it takes 12 weeks for the rest of the world to notice you have lost weight so am going to be living in 12 week batches until I am totally happy with my figure! 

Anyway...I write in the diary what workout I did, what I weighed in the morning, food for the day, Estimated Calorie Intake and then finish with if I had a Healthy Day or not. Although I'm writing things down I don't feel like I'm logging food and I only count up what I have had at the end of the day. I'm wanting to move away from being on a 'diet' and just move into the realm of Healthy Living without having to restrict myself to anything. I feel that this will actually stop me from going on binges as everything is accessible to me all day long... it's just my choice to be healthy. I feel that for me at this stage this is what I need. I managed to break a lot of habits and taught myself what healthy is from calorie counting etc... but now I need to move away from that. 

I have been on track with the gym as well this week which is great.. I went running on Monday and Tuesday and swimming today, then going running Thursday and Friday. Normally I would go to the gym at the weekend as well but this weekend I am having a party on Saturday night (#PartyTime) so won't have time to goon the Saturday and have people staying on the Sunday. 

I will be doing a write up on this new Protein Shake I am taking next time.. it's not paid or anything but is just really yummy and want to share it so check back soon to read it! 

The Return

Yes... I know.. I haven't been here for quite awhile... No particular reason why.. To be honest I have just wanted a break from things... It's been a bit up and down the last few weeks. Im still not under 182lbs.. and I don't think it's actually going to ever happen but I'm ok with that... The last few weeks I have shaken things up a bit and it was all fine for while but then put on a 5lbs from a very bad diet over about 10 days... I am now paying the price of it.  

I am no longer counting calories as to be totally honest I got fed up of constantly counting everything. I know what I should have and I know what I shouldn't have. I know how much I should have of things and know in principle what I should be doing it.. so it's time to just get on with it now. 

I have been doing well at the gym and feel like I am making progress there, even ran 2.7miles in 30mins the other day which I was really pleased with..when I get to 3miles in 30mins I will be quite proud of myself! 

Anyway.. the last few weeks haven't been great... but Im drawing a line under it and under my complaining and under my weakness and under my re-starts and under my failures. This whole lack of will power is a mental thing and if I can have the willpower to run and get up at 6.00am to go to the gym then I can damn well have the willpower to say no to food that realistically I am not going to miss if I don't eat it! 

I hope to be back blogging now I am settled into my job... but I'm done with complaining, and moaning. It will be positive thoughts, positive actions from here on in...