Feel like I am Stalling

I don't know why but I really feel like I am stalling in the weight loss. Last week I didn't really loose very much even though I really ate alot healthier than the week before and I did get on the scales this morning and my weight had gone up a bit which obviously I am really not happy about...however Monday is my cheat day so I always have a bigger dinner. I don't know what to do to change things ... I think maybe really really watch my evening meals with Biggy and also really bring down by wine intake, so far this week (I am well aware that it is only Tuesday) I haven't drunk anything and won't do until Saturday (friends hen). I also really need to up my exercise... at the moment its quite hard to do exercise at home because we literally don't have the space. But in 5 weeks we will be in our new place and I will have lots and lots of space and can join classes. I have been looking at Bikram Yoga (yoga in a hot room) and Zumba, I would also really like to get back in to swimming but am a little nervous as I would have to wear a swimming costume which is always horrendous... but we will see!

I am just so so so ready to keep loosing weight.... I stalled for a few weeks during May and June and now I really want to get the ball rolling again especially as I am so close to losing 20lbs.

Everything else in my life is going so well, work is going great, I am back in touch with people that I haven't spoken to for ages, Biggy and I are finally moving into a bigger place and will be in a great situation to be able to save for our BIG house. I just want the weight to keep going (literally) as well!

I know this week I haven't done my photo for my weigh in... instead I thought I would treat you to two photos from the weekend!

Caz and Me



Caz, Me, Sophie and Nicky

Monday Weigh In - 30.07.12

I am a little disappointed this week.... only lost half a pound. Not to sure why... I defiantly ate healthier than the previous week. I think my portion sizes might have sneaked up a bit and I know I drank alot more this week than last week. I did have a busy weekend and Biggy and I had dinner together last night as we didn't really see each other. Normally on a Sunday I try and eat less because of weigh in on Monday. Also on Friday I had some chocolate while watching the Olympics opening ceremony and actually on Saturday I didn't eat that well either as went out with friends in London and I drank quite a bit which meant when we went home we all pigged out a little... Never mind.. half a pound is still half a pound.

I have bought my lunch for this week and have got soups, pitta bread, yogurt, apples, bananas and some extra light Philadelphia. Should help I think! Want to really do well this week as a) want to reach my goal of under 200 by 19th of August (3 weeks away) and b) it's my best friends hen this weekend and I know it will involve lots of eating! It also involves me getting into a swimming costume or a bikini! A little nervous about that already but hey ho!

Anyway have a good week everybody and lets say good bye to those extra pounds!

Fit Sugar

Last night I actually did some exercise for the first time this week, so bad I know! I was going to do Zumba but it was such nice weather I didn't want to be inside so did lots of toning exercise outside in the garden in the SUNSHINE! while looking for routines to do I came across this one (below) man oh man it was surprisingly hard! I felt like such an idiot when doing the ballet type ones but I could definitely feel it! Although it was only 10 minutes ( I did do other routine as well) this one got my heart rate up the most. There is also one for your arms that you can do as well. I think I will try and do this one 3 times a week in the morning mixed with my abb work out that I found. It was always my intention do exercise in the morning on Monday, Wednesday and Friday and now I really need to start doing it!!!

I found the video on a website called Fitsugar.... (www.fitsugar.com) I haven't ever come across it before and I was on my mobile so had a drop down thing and they seem to have loads of different Sugars eg house, celeb, entertainment, fashion etc. Does anyone know this magazine? I'm presuming its American? It seems quite good.

I have got on the scale everyday this week and so far haven't seen any movement which is really frustrating as I feel I have eaten more healthy than last week. In fact alot more healthy... I won't get on the scales until Monday and hope to see a change then. I think I could also not be seeing a huge change as I have drunk 4 liters of water a day this week because of the heat and I know water can weigh alot...I know it comes out of you at some point but I am pretty sure 16 liters of liquid hasn't disappeared yet! I just want a 1lbs loss. I would love more but 1lb is all I am asking for (Remember: 1lbs a week is 52lbs year!!)

Have a good weekend people and see you on Monday Weigh In!

 !!!!HAPPY OLYMPICS LONDON 2012!!!

Things that keep me going

Here are a few things that inspire me. I know that the women in these photos are a) Airbrushed and b) it's their job to look good and will have a whole team of trainers and stylists etc ... however these things inspire me either by fashion or figures or both. I like my shape and know I won't be ultra skinny ... I want this but at 182lbs!!!

Lack of Exercise

7.45pm in the UK

So far this week everything is going well on the food front which is good. I was thinking how last week I actually ate quite badly but I kept my portion sizes in check so I am actually extra pleased with myself for being able to lose weight. I just really hope I continue going down this week. One thing I haven't been good at recently is exercise. At the weekend we went to Brighton to see Biggy's family which was really nice but on the Sunday we didn't get home until 12am and couldn't sleep until around 1am. Starting your week tired really isn't good as it's so hard to catch up... only today do I feel like I am back to normal!! I wanted to start the week with a good week full of exercise in the mornings on Monday, Wednesday and Friday and do my Zumba on Tuesday and Thursday which is my normal routine but I haven't done it all. I have been to tired in the morning and the weather has been so amazing that I haven't wanted to do anything in the evening. I also have to admit because I am now losing weight a little voice in my head says...don't worry about the exercise, you are losing weight already you don't need to do it.... now I know this isn't true because even if I lose weight I want to tone everything up... I think if I was 250lbs but everything was toned and flat and firm it wouldn't worry me so much!! So if I can get to 182lbs with everything toned and firm that would be mega amazing.

The two areas I would love to firm up are my arms... nobody likes bingo wings.... and my stomach, mainly my pelvis area... I don't really know what it is but bellow your belly button where your womb area is. Ladies I don't know if you have noticed it but over the last few years I have some how acquired this pouch thing... I don't know if its just because I am over weight or what. For me its a real old ladies and fat thing... but I often see thin girls with it and I hate it. I find it so unattractive and definitely makes me feel very un-sexy...what it most annoying is I don't know what it is!! I found this exercise that I think is supposed to help and it was supposed to be my focus this week but I haven't done it. I will do it tomorrow morning though and I will do my zumba tomorrow night as well....I want to be toned and I want to be sexy!

I realised that when I get to 202lbs (maybe on Monday or the next Monday for sure) I will have lost 20lbs from my average weight and 28lbs from my heaviest. I will also be exactly 20lbs away from my goal weight. How amazing would it be if I could get to 182lbs for Christmas?

If I got to 202lbs by August the 6th that would leave me EXACTLY 20 weeks until Christmas... well there is a blatant challenge if ever I saw one!!

My Fitness Pal

Ok... I have gone over to the dark side. You may remember a few weeks ago I wrote a blog of Fatsecret v's Spark People. Well I just discovered My Fitness Pal. It only took me about 5 minutes to become a fully fledged MFP lover. The website is simple and easy to use without any nonsense...not as exciting as Spark People but it defo does the job and has all the things you need including quite a few extra tools such as as Recipe Nutrition Facts Calculator, Basal Metabolic Rate (BMR) Calculator, BMI Calculator and a Heart Calculator. It also has the same things as Fat Secret such as groups and challenges and forums but it is the App that is AMAZING. The thing that really kept me at fat Secret was the fact that you could scan bar codes from your phone and it would find the food and give you all the nutrition information. MFP has the same thing and it is alot better. The whole app in general is so easy to use and set up so clearly. All the information is easy to read and adjust. You also can have a live feed from your MFP friends on your phone. I would almost say it is better than the actual website!!

When you first start it will tell you what your calorie intake should be a day to lose 1lbs a week (the recommended amount) mine is 1630cals a day however you can adjust it if you want to lose more than that a week. I used to try and hit 1500 but I think most of the time I went over it so I am going to increase it to 1630 and do all that I can to stay within my limit....including the wine.

It will also calculate your exercise into your calorie input/output so it shows your calories in food, exercise and then Net which I think is great.  On the app you can get either a weekly or daily breakdown on what your food is going on eg sugars, fats etc and can provide the information in detail or a graph or pie chart. I just think it is amazing.

However the thing I like the best and the absolute best is that at the end of the day you submit your food and it will tell you that if you continue with the same calorie intake as you have today your weight will be ____ in 5 weeks. I mean WOW!!  Yesterday it was my cheat day so I had a nice meal in the evening and was still under 2000cals (RDI) but it said in 5 weeks I would be 203lbs. To begin with I was like... ooh I will have lost weight but then I was thinking damn that's only 2lbs away from what I am now in 5 whole weeks!!! Defo a way to keep you on the straight and narrow!

ONE THING TO POINT OUT..... (I only realised this today) although counting calories is defo the way forward and it really helps me ..... it does only count calories and doesn't take in to consideration what you are actually eating. EG. Yesterday my lunch consisting of tuna and salad, no mayo, no fat or anything (see picture below) was 377calories.

But a) I could eat something from MacDonald's for the same amount and b) if I ate salad every day I would lose weight where as if I ate the same amount of calories but from McDonald's and Ready Meals or heavy food such as pasta I would probably not lose weight! Just something to remember!

Fashion Fail

Firstly apologies for not bloging on Friday... I had a hectic day and didn't have time...I wasn't happy about missing it...so thought I would do a double blog Monday.

At the moment I seem to have quite a big problem...and for the first time it is not my weight... I CAN NOT STOP BUYING CLOTHES. I have never been hugely into fashion and wouldn't really say that I am yet either however I do buy things I like and think that suit me and that aren't necessarily cutting edge fashion but are tasteful and modern... I would hope! The last couple of months I just cant stop buying clothes though... all the time I am looking to see what I can buy and try things on... I don't know what's wrong with me. Somebody said that maybe because I am losing weight I am getting more enjoyment from it and I think that could be true as normally when I go clothes shopping it's a real struggle...I get depressed and have no enjoyment from it at all as nothing fits or I have to get it in a bigger size or it is hugely unflattering. Traditionally I always used to have lunch first and then try on clothes as otherwise I would really not enjoy my lunch as would be thinking how horribly fat I was!! On Friday I went out and bought a few new things that I really shouldn't have as I have NO money.....and what makes it worse it that Biggy never buys any clothes and he saves so much  money and I just go out and buy things I really shouldn't. Also it's actually stupid as I WILL continue losing weight and then the clothes I buy will be to big for me soon (eek!) its like I bought these new jeans 2/3 months ago and I remember putting them on and thinking wow they feel so good and make me look alot better...now I think humph...they are a little bit to big and baggy...I wish they were a little smaller...!!! I know that is great but at the same time I don't want to have get a whole new wardrobe again in a few months (well I do..but you get my point).

So I think I am going to make a pact with myself....don't buy any new clothes until I am 195lbs..that is excatly 10lbs away  and hopefully by that time it will be coming into Winter and so I will have to buy some new clothes anyway. No new clothes at all... not even nail varnish. All the money I will save can go on our new place and furniture and paint and things.... God this will be hard... But I have to do it....!!

Monday Weigh In - 23.07.12

Very pleased....I am bang on 205lbs. I think I could have been lighter but yesterday I went to a family lunch and we had a four course meal! I have to say for the first time in about 2 months I am actually starting to lose wight again which is a great feeling. I am excited to think of the day when the scales say I am under 200. That will be such a big thing for me.. I know there are probably many of you out there that think...OMG 200lbs...that's so heavy...and it is but to be under 200lbs (around 14st5lbs) will be so amazing. At my lightest when I first met Biggy I was exactly 182lbs (13stone) and that is what I would LOVE to get down to...BUT  I would be very happy with 189 (13 and 1/2 stone)..when I was 182lbs I wasnt eating properly, didn't have a healthy diest or lifestyle and was drinking way way way to much. 

 

The other nice thing is that people are starting to notice that I have lost weight...and that is always great to hear. I think the "I Can Make You Thin" book has actually helped as I really am more aware of how I feel when eating and my attitude towards food has changed...I am not saying I'm perfect..yesterday I ate a sandwich when I really didn't need it.. but I realised that in the middle of eating it....it's an improvement! I have also started reading the book on nutrition and it is really educational the most interesting thing I read is that to lose 1lbs a week you have to lower your calorie intake by 3500 a week, which is just 500calories a day. I wish I had known that years ago!

Want The Weekend Here NOW Please

Humph...this week is dragging so much. I really want the weekend AND have been looking at the scales and no movement so far this week but going to not look again until Monday. Just want to make sure that it doesn't go up. Although I have been allot more focused on what I am eating and am noticing I have a different attitude towards food I actually don't feel that I have eaten that well this week. We ate the Chinese on Monday night and on Tuesday I had the battered sausage and chips and although I did eat a small portions both on Monday and Tuesday I still had it and then last night we had a lovely dinner but was I'm sure not that healthy:

Starter: Avocado mixed with crab meat on 1 slice of white toast

Mains: Prawns and Smoked Salmon in half fat creme fraiche sauce and fresh pasta

Dessert: Chocolate melt in the middle pots (Whopping 534 Kcals a pot)

Drinks: 1 Bottle of Red Wine

I only had a small amount of pasta and left some but I didn't plan on having the chocolate pot but due to wine I relented and had one.. I can not believe how many calories it had in it!!!

I only had a bowl of Soup for lunch today (129kcals) as tonight we are going to the theatre and won't have time to eat dinner before. When we come out it will be quite late so we are going to pick up a Domino's or something. I'm not so pleased about it but that is what Biggy and my parents want. Was thinking I might just have 2 slices  and just have a cheese and tomato pizza, we will have to see. having said that though it was a girls birthday in the office today and she made the most amazing cake... I had quite a big (giant) slice.. was totally emotionally eating just because I am a bit down and stressed out with work! Never mind...won't do it again as I ate the cake and the problem is still there so obviously cake is not the answer to the problem!  The weekend is traditionally where I fail so I am going to do all I can to make sure I stay on track. Here is hoping! In fact scrap the hoping part...here is doing! 

On another note I bought a really nice nail varnish today to go with what I am wearing tonight. Its black but has very small sparkles in so it doesn't look to black and sombre. It almost looks like that black marble you get in kitchens with the quartz in.... I really like it! 

Mushy Peas

Last night we went over to the flat to have another look at things before the builders go in. We wanted to clarify where we would put things and take measurements etc ....anyway we didn't leave until 9.00pm and Biggy said how it was quite late and he didn't want to cook which was fine so we had a fish and chips.... now 2 things:

This is NOT my dinner plate but just an image!

A) I wasn't hungry at all and could have quite easily gone without dinner, as we were measuring things it would suddenly come in to my mind...hang on its quite late and I am not hungry or even thinking about it.... I have to say it was a good feeling.

B) At the fish and chips I ordered a small battered sausage even though normally I go for the bigger one...and not becuase I was trying to be good but just becuase I didn't fany the bigger one.

Now even though we had fish and chips I was OK with it.. I wasn't beating myself up about it or nor was I thinking OMG fish and chips......yummy yummy lets order big sizes of everything! I actually ordered mushy peas (v yummy) and had my small battered sausage which was nice but not amazing,  I literally had a small handful of chips and actually left some and ate all my mushy peas. It was good. Biggy said to have more chips but I genuinely didn't want them... I think he was quite shocked!

On a side note...development starts on the flat at the end of the week...exciting but at the moment I am up in the air when it comes to decor. Their is so much I want and like but I know we should wait and see what everything looks like first before going to buy furniture and things. I think what we will do is wait for the work to be completed...paint everything ( I think I know what colour schemes we will go for but need to check with Biggy first) put the furniture that we do have in first and then decide what furniture we want. I am thinking that we can go to lots of markets and antique stores to find original and unique pieces. That's what I would like at least anyway....

I Can Make You Thin...Food for Thought

Ok so maybe it is just a coincidence because I am alot more focused again on what I am eating but ..... I have been listening to the CD that comes with the book "I can Make You Thin" and I seem to be really looking at food differently. I am eating alot slower which I am having to consciously do but I just don't seem as hungry or as eager about food as I have been in the past. I know it has only been 2 days but last week I was eating less and then when it came to lunch was so thankful as I actually got to eat something...! This week although I have been hungry I have had a few mouthfuls and then kind of been a bit..."I'm not that fussed". So maybe this hypnosis really does work... I don't ever really go into a trance or anything but sometimes feel myself slipping into it. He says how you can be perfectly aware of what he is saying but sometimes might not remember it that clearly.. I don't know. I have also fallen asleep listening to it and who knows what goes on in your subconscious!

If it the case that this CD is working and I am readjusting my attitude towards food it will be great. I am not saying that it is one of those easy options out or anything but it is totally my attitude towards food that got me to where I am today. Biggy just doesn't get it when he sees me with food, he doesn't understand when I see food I just eat it e.g when I am putting food back in the fridge and its something that I can nibble at I will always have some while putting it back. Or if I get home and he is cooking something and their is food out I will always have some. Food is/was always on my mind and I have seen it as part of me, something that has so much to do with happiness and comfort rather than something to be enjoyed but is not a crutch and is not a focal point in my life!

I know that this adjustment won't just come from a CD it will take alot of conscious thinking as well but if the CD can help me to ... then great!

Monday Weigh In - 16.07.12

Nobody in the office seems to be able to take a photo in focus!

At last...the scales are going down. 206lbs today! Whoop whoop! I know it was what I was when I weighed myself on the Tuesday but I only record on Mondays and its lower than last Monday! Anything lower is good....if I can do the same next week it will mean I am only a few lbs away from 200 which will be amazing. I can not wait for the day when I am in the 100's.

The book "I Can Make You Thin" came through the other day. I have read it (only takes an hour or so) and have listened to the CD. Some of the things I already knew and what he does say does make sense. It is all about readjusting your mental attitude towards food. One thing I definitely want to work on is not eating so quickly and really taking time to chew my food and actually think about what I am eating, the textures and flavours rather than thinking food, food, food. He also says to make peace with your body. How everybody thinks I hate this and that but the body you have is the body you will always have. It might get smaller and it might get bigger but in essence those thighs you hate will still be the same thighs but smaller in a few months...so make peace with your body and work with it to improve it! How stupid do I sound...!!!

Another thing he says is how powerful imagination is compared to will power. When you imagine your favourite food i.e cake you make it so much better in your mind, the flavours and textures you imagine is what makes you break your will to eat the food. Then you have it and it never tastes as good as you think it will. The thing to do is to change it around. Instead of imagining your favourite food, when you feel your will breaking truly imagine you but with the body you want, the image you want and in the life you want. Your imagination to have that will over come your want for the food you think you want and so will help you stay on the straight and narrow!!!

Also I completed my Race for Life - It was really hard but I did it in 43 minutes which I am really pleased about and so far have raised over £300. Whoop whoop!

This week want to make sure I get all my exercise in and keep focused on what I am eating.

Race for Life on Sunday...NERVOUS MUCH

It's Race for Life on Sunday..... I am getting a little nervous I think it is only now just hitting me that I haven't done very much training at all. Also we are having such bad weather I am sure that it will rain and rain and rain on Sunday. So far I have raised over £170 for Cancer Research  but if anybody wants to sponsor me you can do so by clicking here: Sponsor Me : )  I know it's cheeky to ask but it is such a great cause. My aunt died of cancer so it's close to my heart.

On another note does anybody else argue with their siblings? I have one brother who is 7 years older than me and I have such arguments with him. I actually don't seemingly get on with him that well which is such a shame. He has 2 little girls who I love so much and if it wasn't for them I don't think I would try and keep the peace as much as I try to. Last night he really really P***ed me off, so much so that I sent him quite an angry text, something to do with fingers and pulling things out.... He is just so arrogant and thinks everything revolves around him, its shocking. He never ever thinks of anybody else unless it will benefit him. He hasn't taken any interest and I mean ANY in my race for life, hasn't sponsored me or wished me luck at all he has now gone on holiday so obviously is now even more focused on himself. ALSO since embarking on this weight loss journey he hasn't offered any support or encouragement, he has always made it quiet clear that I am fat and that I am an embarrassment to him but then fails to be supportive when I have lost 22lbs. I don't expect him to turn into a cheerleader for me or anything but just one little word of encouragement would be nice to hear from my own brother. Even when I tell him how much I have lost he just says "that's good" and reverts the conversation back to him.... it makes me so so so so so so so so angry.

Anyway rant over...will have photos to put up on Monday from Race for Life and hopefully will have good news for the Weigh In. Going to do all that I can to stay good over the weekend as that is where I seem to fail!

Mixture of Things

Surprisingly I am very new to eBay and have only just started using it. I was playing around on it the other day and saw a book that looked quite interesting that you could "Bid" on. It was a diet book, one of those self help ones that I don't actually believe in so much any more as have defo learnt that there is no easy way just the hard way. Its called " I Can Make You Thin" by Paul McKenna. I recognised him as one of my friends read his book to stop smoking and it really helped her. She stopped smoking straight away and now only occasionally has a cigarette.  Anyway to cut a long story short I bid on it, I placed a grand bid of £1.99 and thought well somebody else will bid as it probably is quite a good book and comes with the CD as well. Well low and behold nobody else did bid and now I am the coughPROUDcough owner of "I Can Make You Thin" with a self help CD....to be fair the reviews does say its quite good so we will see!

Last  night we had a very nice dinner which was quite healthy but I did let myself down, a few weeks ago my Mother bought me some white chocolate cookies from Marks and Spencer's (I had a mini spaz at her and then she bought me a bag of fruit later) They are the most AMAZING cookies I think I have ever tasted. The white chocolate is really lush and the cookie is perfectly crunchy....I had 3 of them and what is even worse is that I ate them secretly so Biggy wouldn't see. Crazy I know as it is so obvious that I know I shouldn't eat them...and I am eating it in secret.....in SECRET!!! So not healthy!

Also I know earlier I said I was going to just try and weigh myself once a week but I want to weigh myself everyday. I know it's not the best and when having bad days will get me down but I like to know whats happening. This week I haven't been very good on the exercise front either... I did get up early on Monday but since then I haven't and haven't done any Zumba, just finding that I am quite tired in the morning this week. Think it could be because I am really trying to watch what I am eating and having salads and soups for lunch at work and for snacks I am having fruit and things....will hopefully see some  kind of result on the scale on Monday!

What is Healthy?

OMG I just had a really yummy and really healthy lunch. I had a bed of fresh raw spinach with a salad of tuna, avocado, cucumber and cherry tomatoes lightly mixed with extra light mayonnaise and balsamic vinegar. Now chomping down on an apple for dessert...yum yum!

It got my thinking though what actually is healthy...? We all know that veg and salad is good for you but what about other things? And what actually is cholesterol apart from a bad thing that can clog up your veins? Personally my knowledge on all these things is pretty dismal and I think this is definitely one of the problems with today's society as nobody really understands what they need to eat and in what proportions. So to fix this problem I have ordered "Nutrition for Dummies", it was about £11 from ebay. I know it's not going to be a fascinating read but I really do hope it will help me in my quest to get healthy and lose weight...I will have to let you know how it goes. 

This is what the review says:

Detailed descriptionIn this fully updated second edition, expert dieticians Sue Baic and Nigel Denby provide no-nonsense advice, equipping you with all the information you need to make informed decisions about your diet. The book acts as a sound reference point if you want to know the facts about food, and debunks the myths behind fad diets.

Nutrition For Dummies, 2nd Edition provides a detailed understanding of the nutritional breakdown of different food groups and examines the relationship food has with one's physical and mental wellbeing. The book also advises you on how to establish healthy eating patterns and how to maximise the health benefits of what you eat.

This new edition includes approx 20% new and updated material, including new chapters on nutrition in institutions and how to eat healthily on the go. New content also includes up-to-date health guidelines and government policies, information on probiotics and over the counter weight loss drugs, plus advice on how to eat well on a budget.

Nutrition For Dummies, 2nd Edition includes:

Part I: The Basic Facts about Nutrition
Chapter 1: What's Nutrition, Anyway?
Chapter 2: Digestion: The 24-Hour Food Factory
Chapter 3: Why You Eat What You Eat and Like What You Like

Part II: What You Get from Food
Chapter 4: Powerful Protein
Chapter 5: The Lowdown on Fat and Cholesterol
Chapter 6: Calories: The Energisers
Chapter 7: Carbohydrates: A Complex Story
Chapter 8: The Alcohol Truth: The Whole Truth
Chapter 9: Vigorous Vitamins
Chapter 10: Mighty Minerals
Chapter 11: Phabulous Phytochemicals
Chapter 12: Water Works

Part III: Healthy Eating
Chapter 13: What Is a Healthy Diet?
Chapter 14: Making Wise Food Choices
Chapter 15 : Ensuring Good Nutrition Whoever You Are
NEW! Chapter 16: Eating in Institutions
NEW! Chapter 17: Being Nutritionally Savvy on the Go

Part IV: Processed Food
Chapter 18: What Is Processed Food?
Chapter 19: Cooking and Keeping Food
Chapter 20: Weird Science: Examining Food Additives

Part V: Food and Health
Chapter 21: Food and Allergies
Chapter 22: Food and Mood
Chapter 23: Food and Medicine
Chapter 24: Food and Dietary Supplements

Part VI: The Part of Tens
Chapter 25: Ten Nutrition Web Sites You Can Trust
Chapter 26: Ten Superfoods
Chapter 27: Ten Fad Diets: The Truth Behind the Headlines

Just Typical...!

This morning I weighed myself and guess what..... 206lbs. Why couldn't that have been the case yesterday when I actually record it....??? Annoying! Never mind I just need it to either stay there or go down. If it does either of those it will be the lightest I have been for a LONG LONG time!

However after my annoyance yesterday of STILL being the same weight, last night I went food shopping for home and work. For work I got lots of nice healthy things (and for home to). I bought lots of salad, lettuce, spinach, cucumber, avocado, carrots, tuna, soups, extra light cheese spread and rye bread things. All good and healthy and yummy! Today I think I will have some soup as going for dinner with a friend and so no doubt will eat more than normal.

I bought some extra products for my hair yesterday as am still having a bit of a frizz thing going on...I bought 2-1 shampoo and conditioner as with my shower being rubbish I find I don't have enough hot water to do it separately and so not all the product comes out and I bought some anti-frizz spray to protect your hair when blow drying it. Today I am very happy to say my hair is as smooth and silky as it used to be. Score! Feeling that this week will be a good week. Yesterday I got up in the morning and did my work out routine I am supposed to do Zumba this evening but because I am going to my friends I will miss it, I am going to do it tomorrow night instead though....I am so determined that this week will be a loss and the next and the next. Even if I can get under 200lbs for my birthday that will be amazing and I still have 5 weeks to go and from today 6lbs to lose. Easily done....!

Monday Weigh In - 09.07.12

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I am getting so frustrated. Still nothing. I am not putting on but I am also not losing. I really need to look at what I am doing and look at what I am eating. I 100% know I didn't eat very well over the weekend. I know if I had kept strict I would have lost 1lbs if not more as when I sneaked a peak at the scales on Friday I was 207lbs. All I want is to get under 200 at the moment.

When I lost the weight last time I was having a slim fast shake for breakfast, a salad or soup for lunch and something small for dinner. I know the answer to losing weight is to have smaller intake of calories than the calories you are using. I am obviously not doing this at the moment. I need to stop looking at diets and things and just go back to what I was doing in the first place which might have been boring but it worked. One thing I will keep doing though is having cereal for breakfast as it does fill me up and there are so many sources that say eating a healthy breakfast helps you lose weight.

But do you know what I am getting most frustrated with... how every Monday I am saying right now is the time to focus, this week I will really start, this time it will be different...it's so annoying and so boring. I need to just shake it up and every day be concentrating and focused, not blame other people not go oh well this happened because of this. I know I can do it.. I have already lost 15lbs and from my heaviest I have lost 22lbs... so it can be done. I just need to stick to the formula that was working before...healthy eating, less drinking and more exercise. Not that hard really....right...?



09.07.12

09.07.12



Saturday Sadnesses

I am sitting in the hairdressers waiting for my rejuvenation treatment to finish. I was right as the hairdresser said how my hair was in SUCH bad condition. Am waiting to see the glam hair I will have at the end of it......BUT to be honest so far this weekend has been pretty shitty. I don't know if it's because I have been watching Greys Anatomy which is very very emotional or if it's just me. I just feel really blue....

I hate this feeling as there is nothing that can be done to lift me from it. I am angry with everybody and short tempered. I don't know what it is. What I do know is that a) I am ruining Biggys weekend off b) I say things I really don't mean c) hate myself. I feel extra fat, like a big fraud and really question who I am. SIGH..... Maybe it's the weather it's July an in the UK all it is doing is raining and raining and raining. It totally totally sucks.....We also live in a very very small place at the moment while we save money and I sometimes get a bit claustrophobic, I guess living on my parents property doesn't really help as your mother always knows how to best annoy you!!!!

Oh who knows maybe it's just because occasionally like everybody else I get frustrated with my situation. But I definitely think watching Greys Anatomy really  does not help...... Where is the Red Wine...?

Glamorous Hair

I love glamorous hair and at the moment I am trying to grow it. I would love to have hair like Sofia Vergara or I am afraid to say Khloe Kardashian. I think your hair can really make you look good and I know Biggy finds it sexy.  However my hair is in such bad condition at the moment it is driving my nuts!!!! Where we live we have a really bad shower and the water is almost like a drizzle so it is so hard to really get all the shampoo or conditioner! Also we only have a small amount of hot water to every morning I take my chances when I condition as I might end up having to wash it all out with cold water....! Very very annoying. I have had really short hair in the past and quite long hair...at the moment I am growing it and it probably the longest I have ever had it. I think I do prefer my hair longer but I have to admit it is harder to look after but I also think it because it in such bad condition, normally my hair is so soft and silky and at the moment I really think it feels like hay. I am going to try and get my hair cut at the weekend as I last had it cut in January! Hopefully will have Glam Hair in time for my Weigh-In on Monday.

 Also have to admit I am finding it so so hard to not go on the scales in the morning, I did have a quick look this morning (things are looking good) but won't look again until Monday.

Shorter and Thinner (me)

Now: Frizy

Now: Longer

Homeware

This is totally not a weight loss or diet related post but I am totally in love. As mentioned we are developing a property and although it hasn't been finalised  I am 99% sure we will get it all sorted out. Obviously Biggy and I have already started looking at decorating styles and things we want... which is exciting enough as it is.... but I have totally fallen in love with this website. Its called Bouf ( http://www.bouf.com/ ) and describes its self as Your products with a Twist. It's amazing. It has so many things in it that I totally love and has a range of prices. It sells homeware as well as fashion. I am afraid I am now going to bombarded you with some photos....