My Birthday is Amoungst Us

So its my birthday season. Have just been bought cake by the office. Was very yummy. I have the feeling that I wont really lose that much weight this week! But I am not going to beat myself up about it as my birthday only happens once a year.


 Biggy has planned a surprise Birthday for me but I managed to get it out of him last night... we are going to London on Friday night and staying in a lovely Hotel for 2 nights right in the docks so hopefully will have some fab views. Friday we will just chill out at the hotel and have dinner and then Saturday it will be a bit of shopping and people watching and then returning to the hotel early afternoon to use their spa facilities. We aren't having any treatments done but will be using the jacuzzi and steam room and sauna and things which will be lush!

THEN on Saturday night Biggy is taking me to a Medieval banquet dinner which involves a 4 course meal and entertainment, we need to dress up for it as well. Now I will be totally honest and openly say this kind of thing really isn't me. But I think it will be fun as Biggy and I will be together and there is unlimited wine and it's something different I am sure on the night I will get into the spirit of things and have a good time.



My Costume

We do have to dress up which I am slightly worried about as Biggy has ordered my costume and I'm not sure its going to fit, he is very sweet and doesn't realise quite how big I am. I am really self conscious about how I look and although very confident on the outside actually worry quite alot in my head about things, this is why last time when I was wearing a dress I broke down as I just cant handle thinking that I look like an idiot or people are looking at me and laughing or looking at me in disgust and then I really start to panic and tend to go slightly crazy! The only thing I can do however is take a big breath and wait to see how the costume fits on when it arrives. The good thing about it is that it does cover my arse but if the main skirt part doesn't fit then I will be in trouble.

On the Sunday I think we will go out and about and then back home in time for dinner with my parents.  All in all I am sure its going to be a really fun weekend. I don't think I am going to have time to Blog tomorrow but will tell you all on Monday.