Feeling a bit Unmotivated

So yesterday's slim fast didn't go very well at all. I was good during the day and was then just starving so as soon as I got home literally stuffed my face! Was not a good look.... so think I will just stick to cereal and soup at work! I know that I have put on weight because of my birthday and I over indulged and ate quite a few things that I shouldn't have. I am just a little down today as I have put on 3lbs in the space of 2 days and it makes me think that although I am doing well and have lost weight why is it so easy for my body to put on weight so quickly. It is just not fair, I know that I still eat things I shouldn't or that are deemed as "naughty" but I don't that often and I try to really limit myself to what I eat and be good, but sometimes I just think whats the point I work so hard at loosing it and struggle and for what.. for my body to put it all back on in 48 hours. I won't loose that weight this week. Instead it will be another 3 weeks of trying before I am back to 203. I know that this isn't the fighting attitude I should have but I think a weekend of not watching everything I eat has made me realised how tiring it is to always be looking, counting, saying no. Now I am not going to stop, and I will reach my goal weight because my desire to have the figure I want is much bigger than my desire to eat all the things I want BUT I am acknowledging the fact that it is hard work and tiring.

I wanted to join the gym now as I am so desperate to be able to start exercising properly rather than not having the space or the equipment to do so but not going to be able to as my finance wont stretch to it this month. So the 1st of September I am in there.

My biggest worry is that I am waiting to join the gym and I am firmly believing that once have I have started doing more exercises I will start toning up really quickly but what happens if that  doesn't happen? What do I do to loose weight then? And what happens if before then I relax and start eating lots as I tell myself oh but in 2 weeks I will be going to the gym. So many questions and no answers!!

I think I need to give myself a focus... so right here it is. I want to be at 200lbs when I join the gym. I will hope that I can loose the extra weight I have put on this week which gives me 1 week to loose the extra 3lbs. It could be doable. It's big goal but if I could it would be a huge step in the right direction and would be such a good weight to start at for the gym. Come on Katherine.. get that positive attitude back please.. we don't give up.. we fight back!!! ( nothing like a good pep talk!)


I haven't done a photo on here for awhile and is something that I defo want to get back into. At work we have updated our photos on our Linkedin Pages so here is mine, I don't like it that much, shiny face, too much gum showing, frizzy hair and you can see my t-shirt underneath my dress which is really annoying... BUT no double chin which is always good!