OMG I can not believe it is Friday already! Where on earth has this week gone??? It does scare me that the older you get time just seems to fly by! Today has been good so far, had a lush lunch from Marks and Spencer's of 6 Teriyaki Beef Salad Bites - it's quite filling but so low in calories its great. This is the description: Beef marinated in teriyaki sauce with cucumber, beetroot, red cabbage, cooked free range egg noodles and red peppers hand wrapped in thinly sliced mooli served with cucumber and sweet soy dip. A grand total of 175 calories... how good is that! I also had a low fat sweet chili dip and prawns which are 150 calories so had a very filling and tasty lunch for 325 calories.
Last night I was at one of my best friends house as we had to go and try on our bridesmaids dresses (which are beautiful and fit so well) and we had a really good dinner. We had homemade Dahl /Dal, I have never had it before but it was really yummy and quite filling. Apperntly its very healthy for you as its lentils, it was served with rice ( I halved my portion) and salad, had lots of salad and have to admit I did have a second helping of the Dahl. I think I definitely need to get my cookery books out when we move into the flat and wake up my imagination. There are so many yummy recipes you can cook with healthy food but it is just knowing how and also where to get good ingredients. I wish we lived in an area where there were lots of local independent fruit, veg, meat shops as I find the range of food is so much better than you local chain supermarket. Something to defo start looking into!
Last night also we were supposed to start learning a dance that we have to perform for my friends wedding, we only got around to learning one dance move that we knew already because we chatted so much, but we were talking and my friends are really really supportive saying that I am doing so well but I could not help feeling really large. Both my friends are quite thin and I never feel conscious around them or ashamed ( they have seen me naked enough times for me to not worry about it) but there were other people there and they were all quite thin and had good figures and I cant stop feeling like the "fat one". Now I know I am doing the right thing and I am loosing weight and I am doing well BUT I sometimes wish that a) I could have a pill that makes me thin straight away and b)I could wear a sign around my neck saying "Don't worry, I am loosing weight I have lost 20lbs so far, the fat person you are looking at is not the person I want to be, I do care about my figure and looks!" I know I sound a bit crazy but I do get ashamed that I have let my body get to such a state and I just really freak out when I think about what other people must be thinking about me. It is defo something I have to work on, my friend said to me again yesterday that she thinks I have a bad image of myself and I know I do, but I am confident in all things apart from my body and how people perceive me. Then I am I turn into a panicked mess of lard!!!!
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