I am still here, since returning from holiday I haven't really been feeling it... I guess it's a case of post holiday blues...but really it isn't as our holiday wasn't really a holiday holiday....I am just feeling a bit "blah" with my life...Some of it is due to the fact that Biggy is away and I am finding it hard...it's funny I am not missing him hugely as I talk to him every day but I am missing having him around and missing just cuddling up to him in the evenings and missing being able to just chat to him if I want to...
Then work is really stressing me out at the moment. I am just so not motivated or driven by it at the moment. I am in a ridiculous situation that I want to have a nice life, nice things, nice cars, a nice house etc but am not career driven. The two don't go together...I know that until I have children I have to work and I have to earn as much money as possible to be able to get that lifestyle...I know Biggy will do well and although I feel strangely confident that we will have everything we want... I am tired of not doing what I really want to do at the moment and instead, have the need to earn the money dominate things. Since coming back from Cameroon both Biggy and I have said that we will invest in the country and I know that eventually that is how we will earn our money through private investments and having our own business... I just want it now...why do we have to wait... sigh....
Food wise this week so far has gone really well - I am sticking to my 1500 limit and have actually come in under it a few times.. I have kept a sneaky eye on the scales and am still at 189lbs...which to be honest I am really really happy about as was totally expecting to have a gain due to being back from Holiday. I have read a few things about the 5:2 plan and am thinking of trying it out but not sure...I did do it on Tuesday as Biggy and I had a leaving dinner on Monday and I ate more than I wanted to. I found it easy on Tuesday but then I did also try doing it on Thursday and actually had to have some dinner...I think this is mainly due to the fact that I had a really small dinner on Wednesday. I am really pleased to report also that I have not snacked in between meals so far this week, I am really pleased about this and it is defo a habit that I am wanting to get into and keep...it's surprisingly hard to not snack and has made me realise that snacking was a big part of my day..even if it healthy...!
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