Is It So Hard????

It's so funny... I struggle so much with my weight... and since coming back from Holiday after losing a whopping 7lbs in 2 weeks I have struggled to move closer to my goal of 13stone...It makes me think...what am I doing wrong..? Is it so hard to lose weight... ? The answer should be NO! 

Every day I look back at my food diary and think "Well I could have done without that and I could have not indulged in that" and it is that simple. If I didn't give into my cravings and I hit my daily targets with my Fitbit I would lose 1lbs a week and within the 4 weeks I have been back be 1lbs away from hitting target! I know that this is much easier said than done but why can't I get it in my head that if I just stuck to what everything is telling me then I would be successful. 

I am now in a good routine of going to the gym and the last 2 weeks have gone to the gym every time I have supposed to and have been doing the workouts I wanted to achieve... but there is little point in doing all of this and literally sweating my arse off if I am going to ruin it by my eating habits. Every time I go over my calorie limit it is due to food that I don't need like chocolate, crisps, wine etc... and every time I regret it the next day... those craving are purely emotional eating and I give in to them every time. It's stupid... Do you know what Biggy said to me the other day "Just think..if you could control your eating habits think how much slimmer you would be"...he didn't mean it the way it came out..he was saying how I have come so far and still have bad habits .... I had just had to pour a glass of water over the left over  home-made sweet and sour chicken as I was secretly eating it in the kitchen while Biggy was in the sitting room... 

I know what I want to achieve, I know how to achieve it so why do I still take solace in food...? Don't get me wrong I am getting alot better... I no longer snack in between meals at work...If I catch myself doing something I shouldn't, like the sweet and sour, I do deal with it then and there by either spitting it out, throwing whatever it is in the bin or telling Biggy what is going through my head and so not then being able to do it secretly. I even count EVERYTHING I eat be it good or bad..and I really do mean everything  If ti has passed my lips I write it down and that's why how I know I make such stupid mistakes...because sometimes I still fail and do eat secretly and do have the food that I know I shouldn't have... 

I really really want to sort this out... I am really impressed with myself with the gym and if I can succeed in that I can and I will succeed in regards to food...bad food makes me depressed and does nothing for me..so realise that and stop eating it.