Monday WI: 18.02.13

Ok so back to 196... all good apart form the fact that this is now the 8th week that I have been going up and down and haven't got any further than 196lbs. Never mind... moving on and moving on to better things. Currently feeling really good and really in control. On Saturday I went to the gym and did a hefty workout of 60mins on the cross trainer where I burnt over 900kcals and did over 9k. Then followed this up by doing lots of toning exercises mainly focusing on my core....which is now killing me (no pain no gain!!) Sunday was a glorious day and so instead of going to the gym I went out for a brisk 30 minute walk in the sunshine. 

I will admit I had a small disaster yesterday but have realised my mistake and won't be making it again... Biggy asked me to make a cake. Which I did but I have a love of raw cake mixture (given to me by my family when allowing me to lick out the bowl and in the past would make a 1 egg cake mix and then just eat the whole thing raw...) anyway I made a very nice cake, I made the mistake of ignoring the good voice in my head shouting at me saying it wasn't worth it and think of WI tomorrow and instead ate a couple of spoonfuls.. I soon regretted it however as within 5 minutes I was feeling a bit ill as could feel the heavy raw cake mixture starting to expand in my stomach ...I had also baked bread which was a bit stupid as I didn't really want to eat it just wanted to bake something... anyway I cooked it and when I thought it was cooked sliced some off to give it a go .. I saw it was looking a bit stodgy inside but tried it anyway.. it was nice but hadn't cooked properly all the way thorough. I still ate the slice wedge I had cut and so then had added slightly under cooked bread to the mix of raw cake mixture that was already sitting heavily in my stomach. The worse thing is that Biggy and I were having a roast that evening and I knew that at the time of eating all the stupid food. So when it came to the roast I wasn't hungry but didn't want to not eat as that was our evening meal together. Instead  I did have the smallest slice of chicken and just veg with no potatoes or parsnips. Anyway the lesson for me is to really think about the value of food I am going to eat and to try and avoid situations where I am going to be tempted. 

I know I say this every week but I am really confident that this week I will break the 14 stone barrier and get into the 13 stone bracket... I have planned all my meals for the week and so far there is nothing that can throw me off my plan. I am going to the gym 4 times this week and am actually looking forward to it..and am drinking my prune juice (obsessed with it)...My focus for this week is going to be self love through eating healthy and respecting my body internally (how much of an idiot do I sound!)