Zest It Up

Ok so after my ground breaking plan to totally change my career yesterday I went home and spoke to Biggy about it last night. He totally supported me which is so good and was even talking about me doing the bigger course in 6 months… I actually had to go whoo slow down! So I am really excited about that. I just need to save the money for the course which shouldn’t be hard and sign up. I am probably looking at starting when I come back from holiday so in May/June time.

One thing that all of this had me realise is that I need to really re-focus re-group and take it all seriously. Like I said yesterday I still have a way to go in my own education and understanding triggers… the last 2 weeks I haven’t been very focused (here comes the excuse) due to the fact that Biggy’s father has been staying with us and so have I been providing full meals with wine every night, we only see him about once a year so can’t really say sorry it’s just soup tonight! I also haven't been going to the gym in the mornings because to be honest I am too tired, being the "hostess with the mostess" and trying to understand a language you don't speak (french) and giving the image of the perfect house-wife is absolutely knackering... 

I went out today and bought Zest Magazine… I often go on their website and like it but I am not thrilled by it but the magazine really is GREAT. It has totally given me the motivation to get back into focus and some really fab ideas for Biggy and me to tackle our eating habits in the evenings. I realised this morning that it’s my evenings where I fall down every time. Biggy and I have big meals normally consisting of pasta or rice and although I have a smaller portion I do also have the tendency to come home and open the fridge for a nibble…this is normally because I have been so good during the day (normally about 600-800calories) and so am hungry when  I come home. However I totally know that eating a BIG meal in the evening is so stupid as your body doesn't need that energy or use all that energy as you sleep and are normally sitting not using up the energy.

Anyway I am feeling good and focused and excited all at the same time… and I know how tiring it is hearing me go "oh damn I fell off the wagon again" but the difference is that instead of falling right off I probably am only half off and still have a good grip on the wagon.. I also pull myself back on a hell a lot of faster than I used to.