Ok... I am not going on a little holiday... I am hiding... My eating habits are on the rampage at the moment. I haven't gone to the gym recently I am eating all the chocolates that are in the office and I eat nearly all day long... I know why... I am bored... work is really slowing down and I am so desperate for it to be Christmas to have a break, relax and spend time at home. I really really don't want to get into bad habits and REALLY don't want to put weight back on. But if I don't want to put weight on why am I eating so much and not stopping myself? Why do I not have more self control and why aren't I motivated to go to the gym...? The body I want to have won't happen from just healthy eating and seeing as I am not even doing that it really won't happen! My gym stuff is in my car and every evening I drive past the gym and every evening I have a little debate with myself of whether I should go or not... but every time the "Go home and cuddle up with Biggy" argument wins. Does my head not realise that 60 minutes of my day in the gym will not impact my cuddle time with Biggy???
WHY OH WHY COULDN'T I HAVE BEEN BORN THIN???? I am so tired of constantly fighting and using food as a crutch... it's so boring and frustrating. Aghhhhhhhh..... I know the answer is to suck it up, show my restraint and just get on with it and go to the gym... so that is what I have to do. Not on Monday, or tomorrow but right NOW. I promise that tonight I will go to the gym and also promise that I will read my self help book for a bit of helping hand to get back into those healthy habits. I have to.. I don't have a choice.
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