The Return

Yes... I know.. I haven't been here for quite awhile... No particular reason why.. To be honest I have just wanted a break from things... It's been a bit up and down the last few weeks. Im still not under 182lbs.. and I don't think it's actually going to ever happen but I'm ok with that... The last few weeks I have shaken things up a bit and it was all fine for while but then put on a 5lbs from a very bad diet over about 10 days... I am now paying the price of it.  

I am no longer counting calories as to be totally honest I got fed up of constantly counting everything. I know what I should have and I know what I shouldn't have. I know how much I should have of things and know in principle what I should be doing it.. so it's time to just get on with it now. 

I have been doing well at the gym and feel like I am making progress there, even ran 2.7miles in 30mins the other day which I was really pleased with..when I get to 3miles in 30mins I will be quite proud of myself! 

Anyway.. the last few weeks haven't been great... but Im drawing a line under it and under my complaining and under my weakness and under my re-starts and under my failures. This whole lack of will power is a mental thing and if I can have the willpower to run and get up at 6.00am to go to the gym then I can damn well have the willpower to say no to food that realistically I am not going to miss if I don't eat it! 

I hope to be back blogging now I am settled into my job... but I'm done with complaining, and moaning. It will be positive thoughts, positive actions from here on in...