End of a Blog

Dear all.. I am hanging up this blog and have started a new one to take me through to my next challenge of reaching 161lbs... feel like I need to put the past behind me and start afresh... check out my new blog at : www.lovehealthy161.blogspot.co.uk/

Week 3: Day 1: Weigh In

So as expected I put on nearly all the weight I lost in Week 1. Not surprised...am angry with myself but I know why it happened, I know how it happened and it's all my own doing. Like I said previously it happens so often after I have had a success I then have a downfall. This week was quite hormonal and just a bit crap but at the same time was really good as we had sign off on our holiday home so are now proud owners of a property in Spain. So lots of reasons why I ate badly and had wine... in essence all emotional eating.  

Weighed in this morning at 188lbs. 

Plan for the week is to stick to my calorie limit, stick to my fast days, stick to my plan. I am happy with my plan and don't feel like I am really denying myself anything so now I just need to get my head around it all and stick to it. 

At the moment, money is very tight so I don't really know what my food plan is at the moment but will make sure that it is healthy and filling. 

Today I am having a mini fast day but not actually meaning to if that makes any sense. We are going to the cinema tonight so won't be having dinner and I am obviously not going to have any sweets or anything so don't see myself having anything after lunch..if I do eat it will be porridge or soup when I am home. 

Breakfast: Oats So Simple Porridge (215Cals)

Lunch: Roast Chicken Breast and Veg (250 Cals)

Dinner: None OR Porridge/Soup when home depending how I feel (215Cals) 

So that's either a 700 cal day or a 465Cal day depending on how I feel. 

Hope you all have a good week and I am positive I will see the change happen this week. End of April gets closer every day so really do need to knuckle down and complete this. 

Week 2: Day 5 Write OFF

This week has not been a good week.. I know why. I saw the scale go down after a very strict week last week, was feeling good about myself and relaxed. I do this so often, that's why if you look at my Weigh In's the pattern will go: lose weight, stay the same, put on 1lbs or 2, lose weight, stay the same, put on 1lbs or 2. 

So far I have had: 

Mon: Ended up having a cheat day of wine and Brownies

Tues: Ice Cream and a Slice of Baked Alaska (Fast Day)

Wed: Chocolate, Wine, Brownies

Thurs: Sandwich, Toast, Garlic Bread, Champagne, Sticky Toffee Pudding (Fast Day)

So.... as you can see.... I have NOT had a good week. Actually its really good to see this written down as I can see really how much I have had and how bad it is... however...my head is still in the game. This week has been slightly hormonal and I have turned to food for comfort. My willpower has been non existent and the scales are showing the results. SO what am I going to do about it...? I am going to have two more fast days this week, one today and one on Sunday. That should counter the over load of food and I have to make sure I am good on Saturday as well to get the 1.5lbs loss I need for the week.. I need to see 184.5/184lbs on the scale on Monday to stay on track.  

This week although bad, has reminded me that I need to stick to the plan and just because I am feeling a bit down in the dumps doesn't mean that I should turn to food for comfort.. as we all know what you eat in private you wear in public. I am more than happy with my plan and know I can make it into a every day part of my life.... now I just need to ensure my desire for the perfect me is greater than the perfect slice of pizza!

Week 2: Day 3 Normal Eating Day

Yesterday evening went well. I had my Callanetics class which went well and I enjoyed it. I wasn't feeling too hungry during it and the hour went really quickly. When I got home though I was feeling the hunger but managed to cook my dinner without exploding at anyone ... I was feeling like I wanted something sweat and I did have one scoop of ice cream after my main which was bad of me but only put me 82cals over my 500 limit as I had rice with my dinner instead of green beans. 

Today I went to the gym in the morning and did a HiiT run of just under 30mins. Running at the moment is proving really hard, I am finding that I am knackered very quickly. Today at the end of my run I felt a bit funny, like I said earlier I think it's just because I run after doing a Fast day. 

Had a high protein Breakfast this morning (458cals), and was going to have soup for lunch but I slipped up a bit.. someone gave me chocolate for Xmas and it has been in my draw for ages.. I had half of it this afternoon  but I put the other half in the bin... it did result in a massive headache as I haven't eaten crap like that for awhile.. so lesson learnt.. I didn't have a proper lunch as I counted the calories from the chocolate instead...(Estimated 400cals) 

Tonight's dinner is Chicken Thighs with tinned tomatoes, peppers, mushrooms, leeks and a bit of goats cheese on top (583cals). So all in all the day will bring me to 1440Gross and 1234Net. 

Tomorrow is another fast day and am looking forward to it, don't feel like I am being as good this week which is annoying so need to turn it around. I had a non-planned cheat day on Monday, Ice Cream yesterday and chocolate today...

Week 2: Day 2: 3rd Fast Day

Not going to lie... I am finding today more of a struggle than last week but it's more of a mental struggle. Although I am hungry and having a few pangs I am dealing with it and don't feel too bad...however I am just feeling a bit down in the dumps today...and I think the hunger is making me feel quite sorry for myself. The good thing is that I know eating isn't going to make the feeling go away so might as well stay strong and not break my fast. 

I think it might be because I feel quite bad about last night. I had a great day food wise but then made two mistakes last night.. I got home , tided up the house, was putting some a bag of homemade brownies away that my mother had given Biggy, closed the cupboard door...opened it again and had a brownie... and then had another one.. they were only small but it was sheer lack of willpower.. fail.. then I also had 2 glasses of large red wine last night which I am so annoyed about .. all my own fault and all lack of willpower... But never mind.. i'm owning it.. moving on from it .. in retrospect the 2 mistakes are not as big as they could have been and I know will not happen again.. that's not who I am anymore... that was fat Katherine... not in control, respects my body Katherine. I am also not beating myself up about it too much either as this is why I am also doing Fast Days to make sure I still hit goal for the week even if I have a slip up. I am going to treat yesterday as my treat day and make sure I don't make any other stupid mistakes this week. 

I have my Callanetics class tonight at 6.30 followed by a yummy dinner, might add some pasta or rice to dinner tonight as it's quite low in Calories at the moment: 

Steamed Salmon with Spinach and Leeks in a half fat Creme Fraiche sauce served with Green Beans (377Cals)

Week 2: Day 1 - Monday Weigh In

Monday weigh in time... 1st one on the plan and had good results: 

Weight: 186 lbs (-3lbs)

Hips: 48.5 Inches (-0.5inches) 

I am very pleased with this, especially the loss around the hips, I have to lose a total of 4 inches from Hips to fit into my wedding dress so am pleased to see results already. 

 The weekend was good, but not great, I made a few mistakes but nothing too big. I originally thought I was going to have my treat day on Friday's but I found that this is a mistake as I am then more easily lead astray over the weekend. I wasn't awful, but I wasn't great. I think now I will make Saturday night to Sunday Lunch my treat time. I will a) not go overboard as conscious  I have the weigh in the next day and b) I can then limit the damage I might do. As mentioned I am more relaxed at the weekend and I think this should still be the same but I am already finding my 'wants' changing. 

On Friday night I went over to my parents for dinner which was very nice and we had a 3 course meal but by the time the main meal was served I was feeling pretty full and actually had a really small helping and even then couldn't finish it. On Saturday we had wine and I didn't go overboard at all I poured myself a third glass and then didn't drink it as I just didn't want it...normally I would have had 3 or 4 glasses and not worried about it. On Sunday I did have a downfall, I went to my parents for breakfast and they served croissant.. I just can't help it... I love them...I had one pain chocolate, 1 croissant and 1 brioche.. not good.. and then had a full blown Sunday lunch with them as well... not good at all... 

However I learnt lessons...putting them into actions and moving on from it. Looking forward to this week, have my dinner plans all set out and going food shopping tonight so am confident I will have another successful week. I know that a 3lbs loss is quite alot so am not expecting to see the same reults again.. would love to hit 182/183lbs by the end of the week but as along as I stick to the -1.5lbs a week I will be happy... 

Food for today is: 

Breakfast: Porridge with Water, Protein Shake with Milk (538Cals)

Lunch: Spring Vegetable Soup (130 Cals)

Dinner: Steak and Chips and Mayo with Side Salad (961 Cals)

TOTAL:1629Gross 1318Net

Large Dinner tonight...mainly from the Steak.

Week 1: Days 4&5: 2nd Fast Day & Normal Day

Thought I would do a double day re-cap. Yesterday was my second Fast Day and was a little harder than the 1st I have to admit. I have been sleeping very badly recently so was tired and grumpy first thing without even being an hour into fasting. I was ok though and didn't have any hunger pangs that were too bad, I find the best thing to do when I am feeling hungry is to think about the meal I am having in the evening, rather than making me more hungry if I really imagine all food in detail it almost seems to fill me up! 

I made it through the day and then went to my Yoga class in the evening, I am a newbie to Yoga and am enjoying it more and more, the one thing I find hard is following all the instructions when you are looking down or supposed to have your eyes closed. I don't know all the names of the poses yet so normally follow what people are doing a fraction behind them, this is obviously quite hard to do when you can't see anything!!  I felt fine through the yoga class and actually got quite a sweat on which still surprises me as I will admit I didn't think yoga would be as strenuous as it is! 

My dinner last night was perfect, I had a Prawn Stir fry with noodles and sweet and sour sauce with lots of fresh garlic. I measured all my food and the total cals came in just under 500cals. What has stunned me both days so far is that I don't finish my whole meal on a Fast Day, I go from quite hungry to quite full reasonably quickly. 

Jumped on the scales this morning and am 2lbs down (187lbs), very happy with that, if that will still be the case on Monday morning after the weekend we will see but I would hope so. I am treating today (Friday) as a bit of a treat day as I am going out for lunch and am going to my parents house for dinner, will be extra good and gym on Saturday and normally don't go overboard at all on Sundays as I am aware I have a weigh in the next day. 

I went to the gym this morning and again did an ok workout, for some reason this week I have really struggled with my runs, it's not with my breathing or lack of enthusiasm it's that my legs are just  feeling knackered.This morning I did about 25 minutes at 5mph and gradient 1....not too bad...but..a) last week I did 30mins straight at 5.3mph and felt fine and b) after 10mins I took a 1 min break and after 15 mins took another 1 min break but still made sure I ran for 20mins so made up for the rests. Then off to work for a High Protein Breakfast of:

3xChorizo Slices

140g Prawns

Beef Tomato

100g Cottage Cheese

Half a Ball of Mozzarella

A perfect 499Cals

Because I haven't been great with the runs this week, like I said, I am going to go to the gym again tomorrow. I have said to myself that on Saturdays it's my choice if I go and if some weeks I feel like I have done enough then I will treat it as a bonus rest day and if not will take my arse to the gym to make up for the things I have missed. 

Have a good weekend and look forward to giving you the results of my weigh in after my 1st week officially back on plan.  

Week1:Day 3:Non Fast Day

Got up at 6am to take myself to the gym, had an OK workout but wasn't my best. I think it will take awhile for my body to get to used to the new eating habits. I exercise in the morning before breakfast and found my run quite hard. I completed 20mins running at 5.3mph and then followed it by some weights and toning exercises. Normally on Wednesday I will do a HiiT run but on Monday my run was rubbish due to large amounts of wine consumed with friends on the Sunday evening so decided to do a normal straight run. Over the Christmas period I was going to the gym in the afternoons as I had the free time and was hitting 30mins at 5.3mph but I have noticed this week that I don't seem to be able to hit the same minute mark so over the next 2 weeks would like to bring my time back up to 30mins. I am presuming that I am not able to hit it due to the time of day and the lack of energy compared to mid-afternoon when I have eaten 2 meals! 

Foodwise I did fine, if anything I felt like I had eaten to much but according to my cals I was on track: 

Breakfast: Cottage Cheese, Chrizo, Tomato, Mozzerella, 2x Hard Boiled Eggs (582 Cals)

Lunch: Tomato and Basil Soup (198 Cals)

Dinner: Penne Pasta with Pesto, Steamed Salmon (788Cals) 

Total: 1588Gross 1367Net

Normally I would like my dinner to be less calories but didn't realise quite how high Pesto is in calories.. it is yummy though! One thing that did interest me through the day was that I realise I eat when I feel like I should do rather than because I am hungry. I normally take my lunch at midday, I had a few stomach grumbles at the time and thought "God..I'm so hungry" but actually realised that yes my stomach was grumbling but actually I wasn't that hungry and I was saying it because I knew I had food and could eat. On the Fast day I had stomach grumbles and I just ignored them or put up with them as I knew eating wasn't an option for me. 

I have another Fast Day coming up, am looking forward to it and will be interested to see how I deal with it having already done one this week. 

P.S Still no wine yet this week!